Saturday, December 20, 2008

Confusion, Fear, and Limbo

I've been confused lately, I don't really know what it is that I'm waiting for. I know that I must learn to accept that God can provide and he does provide. Accepting that has been a lot more tough than I thought it would be. Basically I just hope that I can make a breakthrough in this thing we call life so I can move onto what I need to do.

I'm stuck in Limbo, unable to move forward, stuck in time, re-living the past, not wanting to move forward, to afraid to move forward, unsure of what the future holds, too afraid of what the future holds, I know the past I know what I have done, I cannot say the same for the future. I don't know whats going to happen and it scares me.

Well that's my whole soul, I just poured it all out.


Sam, The Nanti-SARRMM said...

Your soul isn't very wordy, is it? ;)

I know how it is, with some classes that i have had to retake and will retake, I am living the past, because it is comfortable. And yeah, it sorta makes you afraid of the unknown.
But that is the thing, if you wait and do nothing and continue doing what you are doing then you won't experience newer and happier things to come, and you won't live to your full potential.
Sometimes trusting in the Lord is just taking that step into the darkness and seeing what is there and continuing on.

Walt said...

Just do it! You never change unless you decide one day that you will AND you make that effort. Otherwise it will just be a pain in your side until the day you die.

Jessica said...

Everyone has had the same feelings. You know that I am pretty indecisive which holds me back many times. I've learned that I have to choose and put all my effort into it. I keep working and doing my best with this decision in mind. When the choice doesn't make me happy any more, I can make a different decision and choose a different path. That's the beauty of it. I hope this made sense.

Anonymous said...

Hey Jason
Well I just read your blog entry for Dec and I had no idea you felt like that. Well all of us have fears I have my own worries and fears but the best way to over come them sometimes is to take a leap of faith. I don't know if you ever heard this expression " Sometimes you have to take a step into the darkness to see the edge of light". I know that I have been scared before specially when it was time for me to pray about my mission and that was hard. I kept on praying but as soon as I would pray I did not stop to listen for the answer I just said what I said and went on doing something else but finally one day I got tired of guessing weather or not I should go on my mission so I faced my fears and I got my answer. It was right for me. Well anyway that is my facing fears experience. Remember that Fear and Doubt are not of God but of the Devil. The lord said in the scriptures "Doubt not fear not behold the wounds which pearsed my side and the marks in my hands and feet be faithful keep my commandments and you shall inherit the kingdom of heaven" D&C.
Here is another scripture that helped me.
1 Peter
"For God has not given us the spirit of fear but of power and of love and of a sound mind".
I hope that helps.
Have a good day Jessica