Confusion, Fear, and Limbo

I've been confused lately, I don't really know what it is that I'm waiting for. I know that I must learn to accept that God can provide and he does provide. Accepting that has been a lot more tough than I thought it would be. Basically I just hope that I can make a breakthrough in this thing we call life so I can move onto what I need to do.

I'm stuck in Limbo, unable to move forward, stuck in time, re-living the past, not wanting to move forward, to afraid to move forward, unsure of what the future holds, too afraid of what the future holds, I know the past I know what I have done, I cannot say the same for the future. I don't know whats going to happen and it scares me.

Well that's my whole soul, I just poured it all out.

My thoughts on the YouTube "censorship"

First, it's not outright censorship they are not remove swear words or prevent people from using them in their videos but instead they are demoting videos for having swear words in them. Why not just have them marked as having vulgarity or sexually themed videos? Instead it's just acting as if the videos don't exist and essentially removing them from lists on the site. They won't do the censorship thing outright but they will basically make them go 'underground'. They could do all sorts of things to make these videos unveiwable by those that don't want to see it.

First make it so the display picture of the video does not include any sexually themed picture of the video.
Second just have it highlight a video or something to mark it as having vulgarity.

Why not do any of that? I just think they're trying to remove the videos that would prevent them from making more money on the site.

Anyway I think its ridiculous the way they are going about this.

Youtube video

I've been thinking about putting up Youtube videos every now and then, but what shall I put in them? any ideas would be welcomed. :)

An UPDATE FINALLY!!

Well, to say the least its been a while. I Can't really say much as to why, I've been too lazy to do any blogging, I've been playing on World of Warcraft till i fall asleep and then waking up and going to work, coming home, playing other games till i fall asleep and then getting up and doing it all over again. I am looking for a new job or a new position at my current place of work as they are closing down my department, and until further notice there are no positions elsewhere so, I've thought about Comcast tech support, which reminds me i have to fill out an application...doing that now...brb...well i found the fruitless, stupid internet and making things complicated. So yes, looking for a new job, hopefully I will be able to apply at comcast and be successful this time and get free internet and full cable tv package. WOOT!!! I don't know what else there is to say except Good luck, let the purples drop, and hopefully let all your die rolls be 20!

An awesome reference

So when I was playing Exalted on Saturday night with some friends we were thinking about what we could do to bribe a 'god' a forest god to be specific, so we offer to put in a good word with the Unconquered Son, effectively the one in power 'The' God. A friend happens to mention that, you don't have that kind of connection with the UC (the unconquered son), my response is "Me and the UC go way back." "We are tight, like this" *Crosses fingers*, "I taught him everything he knows"

Only some of people will get this reference and I think that I will have effectively killed Sam. :) Thanks for reading and perhaps committing suicide by some definitions.

Not much, just a laugh at my RL.

The rest of the basement is cleared out, and now we're going to work on figuring out how we're going to get it and the walk out finished. my hours at work are going back up to 40 a week. haha...maybe if I can get there on time, I might have a decent enough check to pay for things. Unlike Sam I don't have all these witty posts I could put up to make people laugh, I only have real life, which is really sad that people can look at my real life and laugh. We got a ping pong table. :D that's gonna be awesome, got all sorts of things happening hopefully they will happen quickly so I can get back to being lazy I liked that rather a lot. ;) Well that's pretty much it for now, hopefully I'll have more funny for you tomorrow. Talk to ya soon.

I'm slacking

I think I need to catch up to Nanti in posts, I am seriously lacking in posts and nobody cares. :( Rofl. But then again although I have a lot more time on the computer than Nanti does it would appear he gets done more than me. Tell me of your secret oh wise and masterful anti-time waster. I must know what you know, teach me master and I will eagerly learn of all your wise and profound knowledge.

There's not much to tell.

We have two thirds of the basement cleared out of all the junk and trash and we are now in the process of finishing that part. My room is finally getting 'real' carpeting in it, i'm excited. My room will be finished, it's going to take forever to get the carpet installed though. All of THREE weeks, that's right I said THREE WEEKS!!! After they measure the carpet, that's still an entire week away. A full month for carpeting to get done, isn't that a little bit ridiculous.

The house is in our name now, we went yesterday to look for cars because the current car is completely crapping out, MPG of upwards 18 Mpg that is also a little bit ridiculous, we're moving up to a much better MPG which should be around low 30's city and mid 30's highway so we're pretty happy about that, I will know tomorrow if we got the car or not.

Now about my mission. I am continuing of course and have a large movement of people looking to get me on my mission. Many people at work, a whole slew of people in my ward and what it would seem an even larger amount of friends eager to find out where I go. There's not much left to do. Just get my bishop to turn the papers in and I'll have a very short time left here. :) That will be an exciting time.

I beleive that is all I have to catch everyone up on what is going on so I will leave you with that. Thanks for reading and dont have too much fun i get jealous.

Time flies

Wow, so long time no talk to yea? We sign the house papers tomorrow for the money. Not much that I remember about to tell, but hopefully this is the beginning of a new string of posts. Painting my room, gonna go carpet shopping relatively soon, and we may or may not be finishing the basement for renters i don't know whats going on with that just yet. we also may be getting a walk out on the north side of the house for the renters so they have their own entrance to the house. very interesting. anyway that's about it.

So much

Wow so much to tell. Ok so we moved the appraisal to Monday cause we really did have too much to do. Last night we got the paperwork for the house done and able to get all that finished and get the money to pay off several things. We got the cupboard doors replaced, so now just a little more electrical work to do and the cupboards and the garage and the last wall in the bathroom to be done. My room is primed and now I need carpet and need to paint which I'm trying to figure out what colors I want. I think red, white, and blue. Red and blue walls, white ceiling. Superman/Spider-Man colors, and a white ceiling to reflect the light back down and not make it too dark in the room. It's gonna be exciting when I'm finally finished, as it will be done so soon. :) Anyway that's my rant as far as what I've been up to.

Edit: It would appear that the red/white/blue thing just isn't going to work out as it's truly far too much color and I just don't think it's necessary right now.

Green Giants Bean House

So I've been working on helping my parents do some remodeling. Well tomorrow is the appraisal and we still have to do so much stuff and yet we're so close to getting everything finished. So I took tomorrow off and I'll be doing the electrical and getting that so we can pass for the appraisal/inspection type thing. That's pretty much the only thing we have left besides drill some cupboard doors back onto the kitchen cupboards. We want to sand, prime and paint them before putting them up but I doubt that will happen as we're short on time anyway. I'm taking a break right now because my toe is killing me when I walk forward. Well I suppose that this is about it for this blog post. I'll let ya'll know how it went when I do my next post tomorrow evening. TTFN :)

My first string bean. YEA!!

This is the beginning of a very interesting journey, as string beans have no means of travel. I am what is sometimes called the Green Giant as I am 6'6" tall flat footed. These entries I will entire my string beans for they are my children (Not really but I think it is interesting).